I wonder how long this break from him will be…
On another note, I want icecream. ASAP. And a romantic comedy or netflix now.
you know what really turns me on?
Okay. Now that we said bye “for now,” I am on my own.
It’s just Hillary.
No more trying to console, reach out, or understand him. No more letters, text messages throughout the day, or hearing anyone say “I love you.” It’s funny because so much of my day revolved around his work schedule and when he’d be off, taking lunch, or whatever. It screws around with your mind after a while.
I want to find myself and I hope he does, too.
4am and I’m still awake. The fuck is with me.
In 3 hours I do yoga, then come home and shower…or maybe go to the gym before that and squeeze in a 30minute workout. Got to renew the book I’m reading at the library, too. I’m reading a romantic classic story. “A room with a view” by E.M Forster. What’s summer without a few good books.
Okay, then I got to organize my room a bit better. I am such a hoarder sometimes! Why do I hold onto a bunch of shit that gets dusty and is never used or worn. I can’t have Kohei stay here in a room like this in October. Good thing I have Friday and Saturday during the day to clean a bit. Plus Sunday after all the Gay Pride festivities.
Little interview today went well. Crossing my fingers…really want to start making money and gain some experience soon. Retail is where it’s at for me…aiming for being a salesperson rather than working in the food industry or at a grocery store, etc. But hey, work is work and everyone learns what they like. I just remember working in a deli and stuffing cold, naked, headless chickens first thing in the morning…*shudder* not my cup of tea. But I’m just being a princess.
I had a wonderful time with my friend Justin on his sweet motorcycle. He took me around Vancouver and around west Vancouver to horseshoe bay. I liked looking at the people crossing on Granville and Georgia from behind the tinted visor on the helmet. ;) hehe stalker Hillary…but yeah! I think him and I were both watching the pretty women strut around the city hehe. Also, the ocean views from lionsgate bridge and around west van were beautiful! I get along really well with Justin. He’s the closest friend I made in college. I remember trying to guess his age when I saw him for the first time in class last year…and I honestly thought he might even be younger than me. Nope, 30 years old. Mind blown. He shall age gracefully.
Talked to my roommate for the first time yesterday for longer than 1 minute. We actually talked for quite a long time. He’s a funny guy and I’m happy to get to know him. Super respectful, quiet guy. Kind of reminds me of a lumberjack who likes gardening. And biking. A hipster lumberjack??
Hot yoga and pumping iron! Yay. Cat naps for 30-40 mins help during the day when I get time at home. Like little siestas or whatever. And the secret is lots of coffee…then tomorrow night I’ll die on my bed…then wake up early to exercise all over again.
My day today (well, technically yesterday but it still feels like today):
*reunited with a highschool friend, caught up with each other went to a cafe, looked around at expensive stores in gastown, went to robson street, bought a dress on sale and she shopped as well. Then parted ways with plans to meet again next week
*came home, got resume and applied to another store in person for the heck of it. Got to talk to the manager on the spot so hey more chances of getting new work by applying I figure
*cooked Korean noodles and did the dishes, swept, and cleaned like a mad woman the common areas.
*went to a small women’s meeting downtown in someone’s apartment
*finally, went for the night shift at the helpline phone office. Got home now
Tired x___x Hillary, over and OUT.